Woman on the RISE – Lacy Kirven Gause
“Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings in tune
without the words and never stops at all.”
~ emily dickinson
On March 26, 2006 our life was turned upside down. Our daughter, Logan Gause was having headaches for a couple of days; we just thought it was allergies but when she couldn’t stand to see light and was throwing up we decided to take her to the ER. The ER doctor said that it was probably just sinus but he wanted to do a CT scan just to be on the safe side. When he came back into the room with the entire nurse staff and just stood there, looking at us for a minute with this sad look on his face, we knew something was wrong. When he told us that Logan had a brain tumor my heart just broke. The worst part he said that it was so far in the brain it would not be removable. The nurse suggested we get a second opinion, so they sent her scans to a couple of places. The only other hospital that would even look at her was MUSC. Dr. Gerald Tuite was working there at the time; we took an ambulance there that night to meet with him. He said that they have never been that deep in the brain before but they would give it a try. Dr. Tuite told us that the surgery could give her a stroke; there was no way he could go that deep in the brain without her having a stroke. Logan is a very high spirited girl who loves to play outdoors, she plays softball and is very energetic and to know all this will be taken away from her just killed me. We signed the papers to have the surgery done because we were going to do whatever it took to get her better. First they had to do the biopsy. We were hit with another bombshell when it came back malignant. The type of cancer was very aggressive (adenoma) and the only way to get rid of this type is to have it completely removed. Which in her case, looked like it was going to be the end of her happy normal life. Logan was put on prayers list all over the country and boy did God work miracles on this little one. Logan went in to surgery at 6:00 that morning and I just lost it. I didn’t know if I would ever get to see my only little girl again, and if I did would she ever be able to laugh, run, play or have a normal life? I think that was the longest 4 hours of mine and my husband’s lives. They finally called us to meet the doctor in a room and he would give us the results of the surgery. It seemed like forever before he came in. Dr. Tuite came in, looked right at me and said “I have just witnessed a miracle. Logan is doing just fine. Something came to me right before the surgery and I changed the way I was going into the brain, which actually saved her from having a stroke.”
God works in mysterious ways. We went to see Logan in recovery and she looked like a little angel lying in bed. Her color was great; she was in a lot of pain but was doing fine physically. They had completely removed the tumor. She still had to have 6 weeks of radiation. We were in shock when we see how they did radiation, but as always Logan was a superstar it didn’t bother her at all. She really loved going to radiation and so did the nurses who connected with each other. When she was done after 6 weeks all the techs bought her gifts and had her a little going away party. Logan had to have scans every 3 months to make sure nothing came back, and to see how she is recovering for the surgery. So for the first year we went every 3 months and she was doing great. Then they had her go in every 6 months. She was still doing great. They said once she hit her 5 year mark she could start going every 2 years.
Well, we took her for 5 year scan and to everyone’s surprise something has shown up on her scans. This time has two tumors that have shown up. They did a biopsy and they are cancerous, but this time they are too deep down in the brain to do any kind of surgery. She lost her sight for two weeks just from the biopsy. So the only option we have is two years of chemo which she started last July. I have to take her to Charleston each week to get chemo. We live in Florence, SC so it’s a two hour drive each way. I have lost my job because I had to be out with Logan so much. I was the one that carried insurance because my husband is a contractor. So now we have no insurance for any of us. Senator Leatherman stepped in to help get Logan on TEFRA Medicaid because one of her Chemo pills cost $100,000. So far Logan is doing well with chemo. She has her good and bad days. Logan is such a strong child she will not let cancer slow her down. Logan is still attending school and trying not to miss any work. But this chemo has so many bad side effects I’m not sure how long she can keep it up. After chemo there is nothing else they can do for her. No radiation because she has already had her lifetime limit in that spot. Chemo will not keep this in remission. So we are not left with much hope; but a wealth of prayer. I hate this for her or for any child dealing with cancer. It is not fair to them or their families.
Logan doesn’t let cancer get her down. She still goes bowling, softball, and golf. She is so tired afterwards but she is not going to let chemo slow her down. Her father and I cope just watching her and how amazing she is. We are committed to only think about the positive and not think about the negative, even though the doctor’s always seem to have something negative to say. We just pray everyday for a miracle and we know they can happen because it did with her first tumor. Logan is our only child and we can’t imagine a life without her. My husband is the only source of income right now and he has to work out of town for weeks at a time. It is taking a toll on him because he is missing out on so much of Logan’s life. We try to do as much together as a family as possible. We are a very tight family but this has really taken a toll of me and my husband. It’s so hard to stay happy and upbeat all the time when in the back of your mind we know that we are facing. Logan and I are involved in a support group in Charleston, with other moms and daughters. They offer local activities for the kids, and time for support with other moms.
This is our life. Logan is our heart. We are determined to beat this and watch Logan grow to be a lovely lady and live a happy life. – The Gause Family
Editor’s Note: Lacy & Logan’s story was brought to us by Carey Mazzaroni, an aware & caring member of the Florence, SC community. Women Who RISE will be featuring Carey later this month. If you would like to make a difference in Logan’s life, please contact us and we will connect you with Lacy. If you feel compelled to help this family financially, you can do so here.